Autism is me.

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Autism is me.

I've only learned this recently.

But, now I can see clearly,

That it will always be a part of me.


As an adult, its easiest to self diagnose,

Due to lack of knowledge by the pros.

Which is frustrating for me but, understandable I suppose.

Its just that difficult situations like this tend to make me morose.


Early on things didn't make sense.

I always wondered if people saw me as dense.

So often things overwhelming my every sense.

Masking around others at my own expense.


I always found child play to be mundane.

Stimming on the daily to stay calm and keep sane.

If only a poem could fully explain,

The inner workings of my neurodivergent brain.


Written by Morgan Lewellen

10.13.2020

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